Blank-'ness'

I wanted to write something.
But then I realized, I've got nothing to write about,
Been living the same old mundane life day in day out.
Several plans going through my mind, I just never seem to have enough motivation to go work for it.
Then I ask myself, what do I really want?
Is there anything that I want so badly I'll do whatever it takes to get it?
I have no answers.
Only questions, lots of questions.
I am afraid.
I'm afraid of people asking 'what are your plans?'
Because I don't have an answer.
I'm ashamed of myself. But no one knows.

Babbles

It's been a while, a long while I know.
There were moments in my life that I actually think my writing skills just *poof* and gone into thin air.
My brain has become rusty, words don't flow in my mind at all.
It worries me.
Like now. I can't seem to express myself very well.
Regardless, I'll still try.

After graduation which was a few months back, I did a bit of travelling.
Every single time was a brand new experience.
As for the places? Taiwan, Bali and of course the most recent- the United States of America.
The first and second were regular family trips.
It was the US trip that open my eyes to so many things.
The primary aim was to attend my cousin's wedding and of course to visit my aunt.
Then, we can do some travelling.
But, here comes the unexpected relatives who tagged along and literally spoiled the whole trip.
To be precise, they can easily be divided into two categories: the self-invited and the unwelcomed.

I must however say, they truly have 'broadened' my mind.
They have showed me the lowest class of human beings that exist on the planet.
They have taught me how to take advantage of others to the fullest even if family comes into picture.
They have displayed greediness that was so great that I have never seen in my entire life until this fascinating trip.
Being a hypocrite and backstabber is practically their life; it's in their nature, that is why they can play their parts so well.

The details shall be spared.
It was far too disgraceful to even share.
I shall now pronounce them officially dismissed from my life.
And they can kiss my ass now.

live a dream or live in a dream

I'm a movie buff, I truly is.
In my dad's words- a movie-addict or rather cinema-addict.
Well I can't deny that because some movies are meant to be seen in a cinema and trust me, I see films on a VERY regular basis.
So much so my family says I should invest in a cinema or own one someday.
It's a very tempting suggestion I must say =D
The thing is, the atmosphere is something I cannot create which I consider a very important element while watching a movie.
I think movie buffs out there couldn't agree more.

Some movies are for entertainment, some are for excitement, some are for relaxation etc.
You'd be surprise what movies can do to our lives.
I might literally bored to death without movies.

Recently, I've gone to see 'Inception' which kept me pondering for a while. A long while.
To be frank, I don't quite understand the meaning of 'inception' in the first place.
Like some people, I chose to see this film merely because it's listed as best movie of the year.
I mean who could possibly miss it?
So, the first thing I did was looked up the dictionary and the meaning was simple--- the beginning.
The big question then become the beginning of what? As Lynda have said, I'm not going to be a spoiler here LoL

Anyway, it's something at the end that kept me thinking.
I'm definitely not telling you what happened at the end of the story.
But maybe, maybe living in a dream isn't such a bad thing afterall.
Who cares as long as you are happy?

I thought the idea of the whole story was brilliant!
Harness dreams and steal secrets from your subconscious, isn't it CooL??!!!
And kudos to Leornardo!
I think he's got it this time.
We shall see him in the next Oscar's =)

Some thoughts

As much as I want to deny, I think I'm becoming this ridiculous person who's easily provoked by others
Be it behaviours, comments, criticism or anything at all
they can made me so angry that I want to curse
And this is an action that I don't appreciate much

It's frustrating, really...
I always have something to say eventhough I often kept these thoughts to myself
pretend to be nice and all, but, I know very well, I'm just putting on an act
this is very bad
what've become of me?
This is NOT me, I've slowly turning into a person whom I despise of

It's frightening...
sometimes I don't even know why do I have such thoughts, evil and scary thoughts
Or maybe I'm just having too much time to myself
seriously need to do something about that
things might change when the new chapter of my life starts
I have to be patient

Besides the awful transformation I'm going through, I've watched plenty of movies recently
well, one of them was the highly anticipated and debated Twilight saga- Eclipse
you might be wondering why am I choosing this particular movie to talk about
Haha! answer is easy, because 95% who watched it definitely have a word or two

Below are just my 2 cents worth, so, no offense =p

I am one of the many who possessed the complete set of Twilight saga
you must think I'm probably in love with this saga
but nope, I bought it just to see what is so great about this story when everyone was so obsessed with it and it was a good bargain on Amazon.com(not trying to advertise or anything)
most importantly, books are good for keeping(quoting my mum) and she's the one paying of course
as you can see I have nothing to lose
that was how everything begins

Fans might want to kill me if I say this, but, I hate almost all the characters in the story
Bella will be on the top of the list, Edward next and then Jacob
these 3 are easily the most stupid characters in many of the love stories that I read
I mean be realistic, we know it is just any other love story if it's without the vampires, werewolves and whatsoever

Reading the book was one thing, and seeing the film was a completely different experience LoL
the other day I was asking my family if anyone wants to watch Eclipse and I got this remarkably interesting comment from my dad
Here's what he said: " Isn't that the movie where they 'paktoh' on trees?"
in case you don't understand what 'paktoh' means, it means 'dating' in chinese dialects
I laughed so hard I nearly choke

Well, the end of the story? We all went
I didn't force my dad to go and was perfectly fine to watch it myself
I warned him about the not so exciting plot, I really did
nevertheless, he still followed with a little reluctance
he almost fell asleep in the cinema and I'm proud of him for not
It's an accomplishment dad! XD

Coming back to the movie
The lines was as cheezy and corny as before
nothing spectacular and was definitely overrated by the media
but at least, at least Edward doesn't have that painful expression anymore while kissing Bella and I thought that's hell of an improvement LoL
I would appreciate if Robert Pattinson can speak faster though, the Edward's speaking tempo was kinda strange
the only selling point of this movie might be Taylor Lautner's body
werewolves were cute and might make great pets =p

I pitied the parents sitting in front of us
they thought it was some kind of vampires and werewolves horror
and there were a few awkward scenes for their seemingly young children
the funniest part was they finally gave up explaining and ask their children to sleep LoL

All in all, it's entertaining (not exactly a suitable word to describe a love story but I did laugh alot)
one more to go, heard it's gonna be two parts
I guess I just need to finish off what I've started

Here's a little suggestion for those who haven't see the film
if you are just like me who's watching it for fun or even a huge fan of Twilight saga that care less about the definition of a good movie then, go for it
if you have not read the book or watch the previous parts or merely hate it then, don't go

I always thought movies are to enjoy not to create miseries

Look at yourself before criticizing others

I'm not a football fanatic
the truth is I always thought it's quite idiotic for 22 human beings to go after 1 ball

However, World Cup definitely interests me
I like to watch certain teams play to be precise
and nope, I don't think Messi is cute or Fabregas nor Torres is hot and I definitely hate Villa's style
Ronaldo is not my cup of tea and Kaka should get a hairwash though he does look very cute to me
what I am saying is, their looks really is not the main point but rather a plus point

But, as World Cup is approaching the end, my patience has also coming to an end thanks to the male supporters who claimed to know EVERYTHING about football and who literally discriminate female supporters

I do admit that I know almost nothing about football, you may think it's very silly for me to say this
but what I really mean is who says you need to know everything about football to watch it?

Have you ever ever heard of FREE WILL?
So what if some of the female supporters are watching for the sake of cute faces or hot bods?

Give them a break!

Don't tell me males don't look at hot chicks and be blinded by those pretty faces with hour-glass figures
I'm not saying ALL the time, but, definitely MOST of the time

Please do not pretend to be so freaking rational when it comes to football
Female supporters have every right to choose who they want to support based on whatever reasons as long as they are happy

So why do you care?
Let me tell you, you have no fucking right to criticize them just because you think other teams are better in terms of 'football' skills

Will you stop being so immature and discriminate female supporters because they are not supporting your teams or "know nuts" about football

And one more thing
if you think you are so good at football stuff and think you can do better than the players then prove it
If not, please SHUT THE FUCK UP!

I rest my case.

The Beginning

Well, most of the people said it's the end
but for me, it's the beginning of a new journey
this might probably be a slightly late post
but hey! late is better than nothing
and so I'm gonna shout out loud "I have completed the life of a uni student!"

I don't know where I'll be or what I am going to do
right now, I just wanna have some fun and get some rest
hope that everyone is doing the same
enjoy peeps~ =D

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!

You know who you are
but if you don't, just continue reading
I'm sure some of these can make you recall

It's a story about this pathetic group creating a website when one of them decided to do nothing
that person did not ask about the assignment at all
that person did not take the initiative to help at all
that person was just waiting for others to ask where is her work
that person send her 'so called' work and findings when we are done with the contents (mind you, she send it one day before the deadline HAHAHA! as if that'll help)

that person just care about herself
I can elaborate on this
well that person thought she's the only one who's sick and the rest of the group are not
while she is recuperating in somewhere, the group slogged their heads off even if they are SICK too
and this is what that person called "berkira sampai begitu sekali"

that person DID NOTHING for the website, my consciense is clear saying this
I'm NOT afraid of confrontation

oh yea~ before I go
just a gentle reminder
PLEASE DON'T TELL ME YOU HAVE READ THIS BECAUSE I DON'T BLOODY CARE
and yes, I'm blogging about you
just so you know, the whole group is sick of the series of drama
it only makes the group HATES you more
if you want to come with those swollen eyes, PLEASE don't come at all

PLEASE don't use the following lines to make us feel guilty because it's not working anymore:
1) What do you mean?
2) Why are you doing this to me?
3) What is all this about?
4) Are you not in talking terms to me?
5) I thought we are friends but...

"You can cry if you want, in fact you can cry NOW!" quoted from someone, 12 April 2010, 10:34am.

"When the whole WORLD seems wrong and you are right, and this happens repeatedly, then please don't say you are the right one." quoted from another person, 12 April 2010, 10:36am.

"If you want to thank me, you don't need to bother texting or calling me, I'll tell you right now YOU ARE WELCOME and enjoy your day too!"

I actually feel better now =D

Frustration

What will you do if you are deeply hurt by a friend who's somewhat close to you?
well in my case, I'll choose to laugh it away
You might wanna know why
the reason is very simple, that friend doesn't worth the tears

Have you ever encountered a person who pretend to be open-minded and wants you to be honest to he/she?
well I have
and the situation got sour because the person can't take the truth
this is the part that I can't seem to understand, I mean what's the point of asking when you know it's gonna hurt and you cannot take it?
it's just a waste of time, sometimes knowing nothing makes you happier

What's worst?
when all these happened while you are supposed to do something far more important than an argument or a cold war
when the person doesn't want to clear the air and pretend to be the victim
when you try to talk to the person but he/she ignores you
when you have to pretend to be okay infront of this person as if nothing happened

I am truly frustrated but I know I'll get by
Till then.

lalalablablabladadada~

Hmm... I'm just going to write
























NOTHING!

okay~ I know it's lame
but I really have got nothing to write about

maybe something about the weather?
that's boring...

how about... my life?
It's very DULL

or you might want to know something about the ** students?
they SUCK and I MEAN it


AHH~ I think I'll just fade away
before I go, I just wanna shout it out loud

PLEASE LET ME GRADUATE!!!!!!

偏见

你有没有过这种经验？就是很纯粹的不喜欢一个人
你也不是太认识他但他给你的第一感觉就是---不喜欢
很奇怪是不是？怎么会这样？
可能这就是所谓的偏见

如果这个人是一个对自己爱的家人很重要的人呢？（请原谅我的鬼打墙）
你又会怎样做？
试着喜欢他？还是忠于自己的感觉？
我真的觉得很矛盾，不知道怎样做才是对的

我自认第六感还算蛮强的，所以这么久以来我都没有办法蒙蔽自己的内心接受这个人
好像对他并不公平，我却想自私的说一句：我太爱我的家人，不想他们受到一丁点的伤害
对于这个人，我可以说是无能为力
时间会证明一切。。。不是吗？

我倔强的认为这，并不是偏见
又好像是偏见
到底什么是偏见？
不知道，我没有答案

所以至少现在，请让我继续任性的不喜欢他吧！

残酷的大自然

住在海地的人们，要振作啊~
千万不要败给无情的天灾
不要放弃希望。。。要勇敢
活下去！
活下去！
活下去！

I've been thinking... what can human do when mother nature became ruthless?
nothing, there is nothing we can do but to accept our fate of being such
lifes have been claimed but life moves on
we pray for the better
there are still hopes for the future
God bless Haiti~

1st post in year 2010

First thing first, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! to everyone on earth (in other words, those who are still alive)

it's been a while.. I know... even the calendar has changed =.= how sad... opps! I mean how amazing....

which also mean lesser time in my life, I really don't wanna think about it

Anyway, a lot of happenings during this long long break but don't worry, I'll skip the not very important ones

my FYP is not done yet and this really really freaks me out
it's like I'm in the middle of no where, STUCKED might be the word, I'm lost, stressed, devastated, depressed, paranoid... however.... I still hope for the better

Moving on to something happy...

my cousin finally tie the knot after 9 years of courtship on 3rd January 2010

we as the sisters organized a hen's night for the bride-to-be and it was fun, could be better but this is what we called there is room for improvement... so, WATCH OUT and be prepared, my other cousins XD

Looking at my cousin's smile, I know she is truly happy and I'd like to congratulate her from the bottom of my heart...

CONGRATULATIONS to the happiest and prettiest bride of the year!!!

and of course, I'd like to have some nieces and nephews too, so, you know what to do *evil grin*

Marriage truly is the biggest event in our lives and I'm looking forward to my own if I'm lucky enough to meet Mr. Right

OhOh~ before I go, did I mentioned I got a dog for the first time in my life?

I spent so much time just to persuade my mum and it really pays

this naughty little puppy has spiced up our lives and I hope he'll grow happily

my final semester is starting in a week's time

graduating is the aim that I must achieve

wish me luck peeps~